Firstly Father, I am very sorry that i have in the past let you down. I lost faith in jesus years ago and went my own way and i sinned against you and you alone. I lived a life that was not according to your will, even though at the time i thought i was living a life with you in it. But truth was i denied Jesus as my lord and saviour and by doing so; my relationship with you was distorted. Thank you Father that even though i was unfaithful you proved to be faithful thoughout. recently you proved to me that Jesus is indeed my Lord and saviour and you showed me parts of my life which you was angry with me and wanted me to change. You gave me the option to spend a life time with my partner that you did not choose for me or an eternity with you. I chose an eternity with you Lord and just as i was about to finish my relationship, you gave my girlfriend your word which was "it was like a test that abraham had to go though" and you told her to tell me this. I remembered that earlier you gave me the thought that the trial i was enduring was a test like abraham also, i believed that the word is from you Father that you tested me to see if i would leave her and once i did you said stop "marry her"! I really hope so, sometimes i doubt lord, but the conviction of your spirit was so strong that night. I love you God with all my heart, i love you because you loved me first and sent your son to die for me. When i lose faith in your son i am lost and still in my sin. Talking to my future wife that i believe you want me to be with, it seems that she has not quite excepted Jesus as her saviour yet. Please Lord i beg you show her according to your love and will. I realise the difficulties that can occur when we are yoked with unbelievers. Please spare me the heartache and bless our love for one another. I truely believe that she is a gift that you gave me, she is my soul mate and companion on this earth, i want to be able to share our relatiomship and have you as our centre Lord Jesus. I sorry if i doubt you. I am sorry that recently i have been depressed also, i think about the world, the people that are unsaved and i think of myself and realise how lucky i am to be saved and forgiven for my sins. i have been crying alot thinking about loved ones going to hell and have been researching about universalism christianity, about life after death, about there is a hell, there isn't a hell, that the lost just die, i haven't been putting my faith in the loving God i came to know and how awesome your works are. You know what is going to happen before it happens, you cannot tolerate sin and you discipline leads to repentance, mercy and love. I repent lord, please help me and Bonnie and bless us. I love you God, i love you and accept that you and Jesus are ONE! You are the God that saves and we need you. In Jesus name i pray, Amen
Charlie.
Received: May 11, 2015