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This prayer is for Jacline, Destini, Jack, Darline and Bird.
Lord God I come into your presence with thanksgiving in my heart with praise and glory and honor! I pray that you forgive me of all of my sins and forgive those who have sinned against me. I pray for your everlasting love, favor, mercy, patience, guidance, and healing. I pray in the name of Jesus that no weapon formed against me and my family and loved ones shall prosper. God you said in your word that we must come to you repeatedly demanding our hearts deepest desire until you have given it to us! Well God I come to you as your distraught child begging you to free us from the constant trials and tribulations that we have continued to encounter. God I thank you for allowing us all to come so far from what we all went through way back when. I pray as a family we are able to heal and forgive each other for all that has happened.
Today I spoke to my mom for the first time in over a month and a half and I just had to come out with it…I told her about everything, well almost everything that has transpired over the past two years. A parents worst night mare was dreamed today ! I could hear she wanted to literally fall over and just die. I couldn’t take it I felt so horrible. Yes she isn’t the parent that you can just speak to but to me after a certain point your parents should still be looped in on what’s going on in your life, whether it be good or bad. FYI… she is not with the 21st century so literally I have spoken to my mom on the phone maybe five this year. I truly feel some type of way that I never speak with her? She never calls to check on me like the normal parent would do. She doesn’t even act like a normal person. She hasn’t dated or had any sexual relations not even a kiss in over 12 years. AND BY ALL MEANS there is nothing wrong with it… SHE IS A CHRISTIAN WOMAN and plays no games with God. But I worry for her mentally and emotionally. my mom didn’t have parents when she was younger to raise her and show her how a parent should treat their children. My mother ran away after being molested by her father for years, lived life and married my father Jack! They were married for 17 years, my father had an affair and with it came along Jackie…. Me and Destini’s baby sister. My mother is one of the most hurt and broken people and with just a short and I mean very and extremely short synopsis of her side. My mother needs restoration of the worst kind to me because she needs it completely in every way shape and form. In very white, grey and black area. So God I pray that you go back and heal comfort and restore my mother mentally, physically, and emotionally. God give my mother a sound mind, I pray that you will heal her hurts and comfort her fears. Allow my mom to live life and to open up more! I pray that you not allow the devil to have any more holds on her life. I pray that you release her from the hurts and pain that have been suppressing her for over the past 45 years in the name of Jesus.
Today I called Destini and she didn’t answer, it went straight to voicemail! That was this morning and I just called her around 10 ish and same thing. SMH I swear man ! This girl gets it from her momma! Well lets see here where to start with my baby. She just turned 21, she looks just like me! And can’t stand telling me anything! Just like mom! Well right now she has to deal with a current DUI… she has never been in trouble so this was very shocking to my father and I. However just about a week ago I found out that the circumstances surrounding her accident intensified and sat me on by behind like I was my mother. Then this past Tuesday….. THE SAME DAY I LOST MY JOB she hots be with another atomic BOMB! All tied to her accident. Ladies KEEP YOUR WITTS ABOUT YOU AT ALL TIMES! I don’t have more than three drinks while I am out and I never let that glass leave my eye! If so……………..TRASH!!! So next week I will probably be taking a trip to VA to spend some times while she has to go through some procedures. Let me tell you this girl has put me on a roller coaster ride and shes not even my child ! 2015 my sister was shot in the leg and “GOD BLOCKED IT! HE WOULDN’T LET IT BE SO! NOOOOO!”
CAN I GET AN AMEN! LET THE CHURCH SAY YESSSS!
My baby sister! That day felt like the year of 2010, Daddy called and told me he had a brain tumor! My world crashed all I could think of was why us? Haven’t we all been through enough? Now this? God is so good, my sister is able to walk and the buck shot didn’t hit any major arteries. She has somewhat of an indention in her left leg but SHE IS ALIVE! But now she is against some tough trials and tribulations! So God I pray that you humble her heart, mind and soul. I pray that she will be able to let go of all of the pain and anger she holds deep down inside. For it is ruining her and causing her more pain than you or I would want for her. God she is talented and gifted all from you! I pray that she is able to somehow see understand and appreciate how blessed she is and be grateful for all of what you have blessed her with! For God there are great things destined for Destini’s future! I pray that you will guide her and direct her path! Please order her steps in your word! In the name of Jesus, AMEN!
Today I spoke with daddy, I always speak with daddy! He is literally the only person in my family that actually keeps in touch on a regular basis. BUT when comes DADDY…. Here comes the BS! My daddy is all over the place. He has a boss that he works for and makes them so much money is literally RIDICULOUS! But he NEVER HAS THE TIME TO DO WHAT MATTERS!!!!! Not to mention he has a girlfriend! Ugh! I mean don’t get me wrong she is cool and all but God only knows I am a little jealous! Daddy got ripped from Destini and I when we were children me 12 and Des 8. So we truly haven’t had the time with our father that we would like and now I feel that instead of coming to see me….. he goes to see her -___- what kind of mess! Lord forgive me! But I feel every type of some way about this! She is 40! HE IS 59!!!! And to top it all off my father didn’t even tell this woman his real age! (Yo I am rolling on the floor laughing) I mean he doesn’t look like it at all but come on daddy! TELLTHE TRUTH AND SHAME THE DEVIL! SMH ……..I tend to say that a lot because THERE ARE NO WORDS PEOPLE! I mean DON’T GET ME WRONG… Daddy is a good man but like I said “THE BS WILL SURE FOLLOW” shoot be on the lookout for it. I’m trying to tell you! Anywhoo daddy isn’t all the way bad he is a mystery! A COMPLETE MYSTERY! WE REALLY DON’T KNOW MUCH ABOUT DADDY! I mean we know him but his past…. Is like he wasn’t even here until my mom. Who constantly accused him of possibly doing things to my sister and I. WHICH NEVER EVER HAPPENED! My father is a good father. Not the best but he is the best he can be even with his flaws. So with that said he went through a bit of mental and emotional trauma that in a way rubbed off my mother. God Please touch my daddy. IDK what exactly is wrong with him but he just has been too much of a mystery. I pray that he will keep his word and be able to mend relationships he has broken! IN THE NAME OF JESUS! AMEN!
AND AS FOR ME… Hello my name is JACLINE! (that’s JACK + LEAN)
Well I lost my job on Tuesday of this past week. Ever since I have been in a mental downward spiral. Mommy told me if you’re going to pray don’t worry and if you’re going to worry don’t pray! So God I pray that you ease my heart mind body and soul! I pray that you will use this to restore my faith! Bring me closer to you in the name of Jesus! I pray that you will allow me to place my Hurts, pains, fears, doubts, and negativity to an end! Allow me to walk by faith and not by sight! Lord God I love you and want you to be a part of me day in and day out! Father God please forgive me and let no weapon formed against me shall prosper! Please forgive me of all the wrong I have done, please have mercy on my soul for any and all I have done wrong. Wipe my slate clean lord God and order my steps in your word! I am unsure of where I should go and how I should start this new chapter of my life! Jesus I beg of you to take me down a path that no man can disrupt In the name of Jesus! Where I am confused I pray you bring clarity. Where I am lost I pray that your wisdom and guidance will find me! Whenever I am sad I pray you be my happiness. When I am distraught bring me comfort. And If I ever loose my way with you, I pray that you go seek me out and find me…. Dragging my behind BACK HOME TO YOU!
I love you Jesus and I am sorry I have wasted precious time please allow me to work to get back the time I wasted away! Please answer every prayer I didn’t pray tonight and Thank you for what you have done, what you are doing and for everything you are going to do!
Jacline
Received: April 23, 2017